X' Mas 2012

               

           Today It is truly winter, so cool, I can not wake up until 10 a.m. At weekend I just sleep the whole day in my room, or stay in bed & send messages to my friends. I haven’t shared my feelings in my blog for a long time because of my busy life. Time is over as a dream, tomorrow is noel 2012, and it means that I have lived a part from my family for nearly one year. I haven’t learned and made anything except for earning money for life. Wanting to do sth or learning more but I seems to have no time. Feeling tired and even stressed from my boss & colleagues I just want to enjoy a deep sleep after a working day. I have worked in new company for 2 months; seemingly, nothing is easy when having fighting between colleagues, thus to try best to work well and get on well with others is extremely hard. However, I will become stronger to face with it.

       I don’t know how nice noel is! Thus, I want to go out with my girlfriend in noel night because every noel I just stay at home for sleeping. Next week I continue to doing as tutor and it also is good way to treat my lazy. I haven’t learn sth for a long time, my learning plan seems to be crashed now I should refresh myself.

     X’mas to everyone !

A serious sore- eyes

                          

            I have had red sore eyes for 3 days, it ‘s very uncomfortable when working with having sore eyes. Everyday I always take an aspirin and use eyedrops, however, it becomes more and more serious. My eye is red and swollen. When I get up every morning, it’s hard to open. This morning I go for working as usual, but so many workers in company seeing my eyes both advise me to go to hospital as soon as possible. It looks very terrible. It is the first time I have got this disease so that I also don’t know how serious it is. I feel a bit worried and scared of sth. I ask my boss for taking off a working day, and then going to see doctor immediately. They wash my eyes and give me a lot of medicine. Some workers said that in my case I have to stay in hospital for treatment in one week. Luckily, I just should take aspirin and use eyedrops with requirement. I sleep the whole day but when getting up my eyes still red and swollen, even the other eye also has sore eyes.       

              Tomorrow is Saturday, I am longing for coming back my home from at the beginning of week, because I have not returned my home for 2 weeks. However, it’s better not to come back at this weekend, so that my family will not be infected. Hopefully, I can be out of this disease as soon as possible.

 Oh my God !

A coming storm at weekend

             A working week in a new company was over, a weekend day for relaxing was coming. I didn’t want to come back my home town at this weekend, I just wanna sleep the whole Sunday in my room or go shopping with my friend. That morning I got up early because of the sound of raining outside, I could not sleep any more. I heard from my radio that TB province would be affected by a storm, which would come into Hai Phong province directly. Every one also thought this storm only went across and didn’t prepare something before its coming.

           When I worked in my new company, everyone always guessed my age much more than my real ones. I also thought that I should make myself younger and then decided to go to have my new hairstyle. Coming back my room about nearly 12 o’clock, I enjoyed lunch and had a deep seep while it was raining and having a little strong wind. When I waked up, a storm seemed to come, windy like a typhoon. No electricity, I had to use candle for reviewing new knowledge. At this time, it was heavy raining and windy outside, and terribly, having water into my room, even in my bed, on my blanket, I could not sleep all that night, because of my wet bed and the sound of strong wind. It is the second time I just seen the real strong storm in my province.

            Getting up early next morning, seeing so many trees as well as many roofs of houses fallen down, I also wanted to clean my room after a strong storm. That night I was afraid that even the roof of my room could fly any where along with the extremely strong wind. No one thought that TB also was the center of this strong storm. My room was full of water and many dirty things. I wanted to clean it right now but not have electric as well as water. It was like a place for raising pig.

          Although many other companies had to stop working because of some broken things, I still must go for working in company. Awfully, no have electricity for using in 4 days later, everywhere in TB city was covered by darkness. I also heard from my mother that in my hometown having some houses broken even my aunt’s and my kitchen.  Feeling worried about something, I wanted to come back my home right now. However, I must wait still for the weekend’s day.

My unemployed day!

      

      Today is the Vietnam’s woman day as well as my last working day in present company. Time passes faster than I thought. It’s 7 months over since the first day I worked there. Although I want to stop working right now, it has a deep impressive on my soul. Actually, I feel extremely sad when saying goodbye to everyone in my office especially my supervisor.

      We got both nice and sad memory when sometimes going out for relaxing together. Sometimes she felt angry with me when I make mistake or make her misunderstood about related something. In this case, my heart seems to want to find any place to hide because I’m scared of her characteristics: very strong and hot- tempered. However, she is also very comfortable in working, even I make serious mistake, she always let me have chance to work well. Let me think about sometimes going out together for relaxing even having a small accident. All make me unforgettable in life. Only is it my first job, I undergo it with many unforgettable memories in my heart. Moreover, I become experienced and matured person. Be aware of the way to work well in company, to get more experience as well as to train my skills. Before leaving, I have a small talk with her, and she gives me good advice for working well anywhere. I myself wanna give a thousand times of thank to her.

       I think that this company is the first stage of my way to get success in future. And the other stage is longing for me to join in next week. At this time, I really want more relaxing time before working in new company. In my mind rising many confused feelings, I wonder whether I should work for new company next week or enjoy relaxing week in my hometown. Perhaps, I really don’t refresh my mind to join in new company. However, I’ve already sent email to Mr. Ali that I can join in his company as soon as possible. No time for relaxing, just help my mother to crop the harvest on only Sunday. 

        On next Monday also is my first working day in new company. Promising that it’s a great challenge to me, because I have to master and learn more new knowledge and skills here. Every working day, I must join with one Bangladesh man & one Philippine lady. My second job may be give me more pressured than the first ones. However, no choice for me and I never miss any chance to improve myself even to get high salary. 

        One way is to must try best to work well as well as get more experience. I always believe in one proverb “ Nothing is impossible” “ No ended way in life”.

 Saying gud nait !

Have a small accident !

                                                      

            My life still flows as usual, very quiet and boring. Just get up every morning, go for working in company and then come back for doing as tutor.  I like a busy life so that I have no time to feel sad or bored with sth in my present life. Just wanna feel relax after a hard working day, don’t want to think more. Sometimes, I often go to supermarket with my supervisor – a Taiwan woman after working in company. I ride motorbike to take her to somewhere for buying sth. Moreover, we want to go together for relaxing, also because both of us are alone. She always wants to try riding my motorbike to know whether it’s different from her ones in Taiwan or not. 

         Last time, she also tried one time and the way she rode motorbike like her characteristics: very strong and risky. She made me feel scared of occurring accident. This time we also go together to the museum and sit on a stone chair in front of it seeing everyone in a crowded street. I like the feeling when sitting quietly & seeing sth happening around us much.  A busy life still flows so fast as the waterfall of time. Nearly about 6 o’clock, it’s time for coming back soon and she also wants to ride my motorbike one more time. One old man also rides motorbike in the same direction on the road. Suddenly, he stops immediately in the middle of the street and my motorbike crashed into him. Luckily, the old man may be okie because she uses the brake in right time. Although the old man is wrong, he still says many words and forces us to be responsible for this accident even my supervisor has a painful in leg. No matter how he says anything, we continue coming back soon. 

          It is just a small accident and is my first accident since I bought my motorbike. Next time, I will not accept for her to try more and should ride more carefully. I feel extremely scared of something happens when get a serious accident. I cannot imagine how my life will become when causing a serious accident with that old man at this time.

My graduation !

Khi ta ở chỉ là nơi đất ở

Khi ta đi đất đã hóa tâm hồn !

         My present life is so busy that I have no time for learning or doing something by myself. It was about nearly one week since I got my graduation certificate, however I still want to write down some feelings after that celebration.

        Unluckily, I went to Thai in a heavy raining day and I almost could not go out for doing anything except staying at my grandmother’s home. Feeling very tired after a 180km journey from my home to Thai city, I got a deep sleep at noon. The black cloud covered the sky and it was going to rain right now. However, I still went to bookstore for buying some good English books. One hour later, it stared raining, lighting and having thunder. I was afraid of thunder much and no way to come back. I had to stay in bookstore in nearly 3 hours. Next morning I got up with my fresh feeling but it had a little rain. I visited my village, in which I had ever lived for 4 years. Many things to talk and to share with everyone, I felt extremely joyful and seemingly my student’s life turned back. It was a life with thoughtless, joyful and even difficult. This journey might have been the last time when I came to Thai city. I always wanted to do meaningful things after this journey. Thai is a boring and sad place, where at first, I extremely hate, but now it had an impressive on me with many unforgettable memories.

        On Sunday morning, I went to my university to take part in graduation celebration. Seeing my university friends, they seemed to be more growth and more beautiful. I had to wait for a long time to get my personal record because there were many students did that. I was afraid of the fact that I could not come back my home to work in the following morning. So many papers needed to signed, wait and wait for a long time, at last I got my certificate, which I was longing for 4 university years. No time to be in Thai more, I hurry to catch the coach to come back my home, although the last coach to Thai Binh was over. I became confused and did not know what I should do now. Catching a coach to Ha Noi or still stayed in Thai until the next early morning. I caught the coach with 2 stages and finally I also returned my home about nearly 10 p.m .

             It was the most awful journey I had ever enjoyed. Be extremely tired and sleepy, I still had to prepare something for going to Thai Binh city tomorrow morning. It still rained heavily in Thai Binh. I continued with my working in company and doing as tutor everyday. It just was all my feelings after that journey.

A special - normal day !

         

             I am attracted by a circle of busy life, everyday is the same time, when I finish working in company, then doing as tutor. I don’t feel sad anymore and have no time to think about something in my present life. However, in these days, I feel extremely stressed with my manager, she seems to feel uncomfortable about me, I do not know the reason why, may be.....I feel bored with my present job, moreover, wanting to work off in company right now. Life is the only life, sometimes; I must accept and go along with them. If I stop my working in company now, I will become an unemployed person. Indeed, I don’t wanna to make my parents sad about me any more. Thus, I am still impatient and work in this company. It is just only a temporary job in present. When I get my graduation certificate, I will apply for a job as an English teacher in a high school or in any colleges in TB city. I always want to try every challenge in life. It’s a pity ! I heard that my friends have already gone to my university to take a lecturer exam. I also want to take part in this exam, but it is too late for me. Feeling a little sad and disappointed about myself, I get a hard thought in my mind.

           This Sunday weekend is coming; I want to go to Ha Noi city to see my brother, who has already come back from Korea. I have not seen him for 2 years. After this coming back, he will go to Germany for study as PhD in biotechnology. I don’t know the time, when he considered me as a younger sister. He is very kindly and I learn many good things from him. It’s extremely sad if I have no opportunity to see him.

       Time is passing so fast that I cannot imagine. I have done as tutor for 1 month, and my life becomes busier. I seem to forget my birthday without receiving my friends’ congratulation messages. Today is a little special day to me. Getting some mixed feelings in my mind, both joyful and a little sad. I remind of the time on my last birthday; I celebrated the birthday party with everyone in my village. It’s a wonderful party, we talk and smile much with each other. This is an unforgettable time in life. However, on my birthday this time, just get many good congratulations, no gift, no candle, no birthday party. Just only I am with 4 pieces of wall in my room on my birthday and it’ so normal thing! In this crowded city, I must be acquainted with sadness. And my life still flows like this way! I wanna to go Thai city, may be it also is the last time, when I go for getting my graduation certificate. 

                                                               

Some mixed feelings ...!

 A busy life

       Just today, I have some mixed feelings. I can not describe my mood this time, both sad and disappointed about myself. I always want to learn and do something but I am an extremely lazy person. Seemingly, I forgot my target to take a master exam. Although my parents never support me to take exam and study more, I always wanna to try. I almost don’t learn any knowledge for exam and especially, an difficult subject – Chinese, which I know nothing. It’s rather challenging for me, and I feel scared of doing Chinese test in exam. I have to learn Chinese again at the beginning lessons. I consider myself that I can’t take M.A exam in September this year, and then taking another exam in March next year. However, when hearing from my friend about the register of taking M.A exam, I feel very sad and disappointed about myself. I want to cry much and then disappear in this life. I’m truly a worthless person.

       I have already got a bad news from my mother. Feeling very sad when hearing that my father gets an working accident while doing in a field. I can’t imagine so bad situation like that. I want to come back my home right now, but I still must work tomorrow, and just can return after finishing my work at 4.30 P.m. I feel extremely worried about my father’s status. I remembered that last time my mother also had to go to hospital to have an operation but no one talked with me about this news. When having heard from my relatives about my mum’s disease, I could not stop my tear and cry much. Indeed, I feel very painful in these situations.

          A week has gone away so fast that I can not imagine. After finishing my working in company, I still continue doing as tutor everyday. I think that when I am busy with working, no time for me to think about sad things in my life any more. Last time, I came back from my company early, no friend to talk and no place to go, I just rode motorbike around my city to kill time, and then felt relaxing to come my room. Since doing as a tutor, my life becomes more joyful, especially when discussing the lesson with my pupil. Luckily, I get some good information from my pupil, he is going to take an exam to become an official position in provincial departments. He suggests me to try in this exam , but I have not got my graduation certificate. I don’t understand why my friends in other universities also get this certificate, but we always have to wait for a long time. It is unmeaning time for waiting. I always wanna to try in this official exam, what I should do now, just wait and wait for…I feel extremely hateful with this way.

        Today, I want to go to bed early and be longing for tomorrow coming soon. Thus, I can come back my hometown as soon as possible, I feel very worried about my father.. Goodnight someone!

       

A tearful day !

              It’s so hot today even sitting in office with an air condition. I have worked for 3 months, got some experience, and learned the way to work well in company. But the working environment in company is very complicated. Last time a customer asked me to open her facebook and showed her the way to tag some photos. Sometimes, she gets some trouble with something, I always help her even get medicine for her when she has stomachache. Unimaginably, she told my manager that I myself open her computer to do something without her permission. I don’t understand why she can tell a lie even I help her many things. Just feel her like an awful person, I don’t want to work with her anymore. From now on, I must bear in my mind that should not believe any one in life except for my parents and siblings.

              Luckily, my manager asks me to work for the other customer. Many new things, I have to learn. My manager forces me to learn and remember many knowledge of garment in one day. I feel extremely pressure. I don’t understand why I can’t stop my tear when she talks some hard words with me. Today is the first time I cry in front of my colleague in company. She actually gets some misunderstood things with me. She always feels uncomfortable when sometimes I have to work off at least two days to go my university. I also don’t like her attitude. Indeed, it’s so hot that someone can become angry with others.

              At this time, I actually don’t want to work there any more. There have many awful things in a working environment in company. Moreover, I don’t want to work for any foreign company, they always force u to do like their way. Just always have to work whatever they want. I extremely don’t like this working way. I have to wait a long time for TAV Company because they still take interview many candidates and at last choose the good ones for the second interview. Luckily, I have a chance to take the second interview. This interview may be very difficult and challenging to me. I always want to change my working environment and get high salary. Thus, I will prepare something carefully to make my wanting things.

A crazy working day...

        

      

        

          Every week, I am always longing for a nice weekend day to come back my hometown. Today I feel extremely tired and angry with customer in company. My working is to go with customer and help her do something everyday. She is so fastidious person. Sometimes, when she becomes angry with others, she also makes us more uncomfortable. Moreover, she also gets angry with us even we don’t make something wrong.

         Until now, I feel extremely mad with her. Every Saturday, everyone in company can go home at ruled time, no work overtime. However, customer forces us to work overtime until nearly 9:30. P.M. Thus, my plan to come back my home can not do. Feeling very tired, stressed and uncomfortable with her working way, I don’t want to work with her any more. Evenly, my colleague has to burst into tear when being fed up with customer’s attitude and her husband’s. He not only does not sympathy for her coming late, but also always calls and talking many annoying words with her. Having to work overtime to a person, who has your own family, is uncomfortable. I still wait for company, which I took interview some days ago. This time I actually wanna to change the working environment.

         I ride motorbike on a dark road through industrial zone, feeling afraid of bad things. Luckily, I come back my room safety. But no one stay at my village, they have come back their hometown. I become more sad and lonely, when only I stay here. I even scared of ghost or awful things. Being very tired and sad, I hate my present life much. Everyday, going to work, and then coming back my room to face with 4 walls. I don’t want to work far from my home any more. I want to become an E teacher, to live with my parents and play with my siblings. Just a simple life I desire, but cannot become true at this time. It is rather difficult to apply  for a job as an E teacher. No other choice, I still have to work in company at present time. I may be change my job in near future. Let’s smile and have a nice Sunday with a long sleeping!

  

        Hope to wake up on tomorrow morning with fresh air and special coming news!

 

 

A new challenge !

                                                              U are still the one